vapour | LL PT. 2

There wasn't really much I had to say... Drinking alone is just kind of pathetic.

[ he chuckles a little. ]

But you made that choice on your own, didn't you? That down about Storm that you wanted to get away from your friends and drink alone about it? I guess I can see that, though. You're a sensitive individual about being left.

[Bristles a bit at the mention of Booker....and being called out on being sensitive, hands tightening around his glass]

If you know why I'm in a mood, then why even bother asking?

[ just going to pick up whatever drink he has to take a sip from it. ]

Because you invited me here despite me already saying I was leaving you alone for that very reason, which means you want to talk about it with someone and can't bring yourself to because of whatever weird standards you have set up for yourself in your world.

Or... you want me to distract you really bad by giving you some other emotion to feel than what you've got on your chest right now.

…have I told you lately how awful you are?

Maybe last time we talked?

You missed one though. Friday swapped with his vision self too.

Haha, I guess no one's perfect. Although I'm sure he would be a lot kinder company to distract yourself with. So, maybe you're also wanting to engage with someone that you won't miss when they leave you, in that case?

Or that you won't feel bad about leaving first? Something something... I'm not very good at analyzing blond celebrities that are their own worst enemy, to be honest...

Edited 2025-12-21 06:27 (UTC)

And yet you still came here. I’m going to assume you’re either bored or lonely.

A bit of both, really.

But, ultimately, it all comes down to appeasing Sam for me. If I were just bored or lonely I would mess with you more, I think.

[Snorts, lifting his drink finally for a sip]

And what do you get out of appeasing Sam?

Hmm... Sam has nothing going for him in this world. I've been interacting with him and influencing him since he got amnesia.

Unfortunately, ever since you came along... well, it's just such bad timing. I get my memories back one by one and have my agenda clearer finally, and Sam has had no reason to object to my wants, except for the fact you're in the picture now. Thankfully for me, you put him in his place with your own indecisions and insecurities, but he still will fight with me if I do too much to you. He's an idiot, but he's an idiot that only cares about you having the best chance of being happy.

[ Childe shrugs. Like hell if he knows what happy means in that context. He's pretty sure Sam and Jewel don't know either. ]

If I don't rock your boat too much, or I let you have your chance to be happy or whatever, maybe he'll finally give up...?

[…Stops sipping his drink, lowering it and smiling at Childe…before tossing the contents of the glass in his face]

[ He has to flinch to avoid getting it in his eyes, and the flash of something angry flickers across them when they open before it's gone. he simply reaches for a napkin to wipe himself off now, laughing a bit airily. Amused in an unfortunately kind of way. ]

There it is. And here I was starting to think you didn't have anything left in you.

What can I say? I don’t do well with ‘pompous asshole calling my friend an idiot and trying to get rid of him’. Shocking, I know.

[Sets the glass down on the table between them]

Edited 2025-12-21 07:54 (UTC)

[ wipes slowly and deliberately. It's not rolled off as easily as he acts like it is. He's pissed under his current composure, and he needles more as a result. ] You two are more alike than I thought. You'll let the whole world run over you but the second it's about someone you like the game changes. Unfortunately for you... that's where your similarities end. You have a strong identity, and friends to protect. Sam doesn't. If I could just get rid of you, this would be a quick and easy path for me.

But what's the worst thing I could do to you when I can't touch you without putting myself in a compromising position? Hmm...

[Watches him try to wipe away the drink, the corners of his mouth quirking up at the thought that the soda in it is going to be sticky and stain]

There isn’t anything you can do about me. And I won’t be going anywhere. So maybe you’re the one that should just give up.

[ ...he's got it in his hair, too, and just ugh. ]

Eventually you'll have to make choices and prioritize your friends, Shadi. And you simply can't put Sam anywhere near close to your top. I get you hate the idea of getting someone taken away from you, but need you make such a fuss over this one? Why are you doing so, anyway? You two have gotten nowhere in your closeness, are you just clinging to whatever you got your hands on?

Feeling especially nasty now, I see. I didn’t know you were so fussy that messing with your hair and outfit was enough to set you off so badly.

[Reaches out, taking Childe’s drink for himself]

What closeness haven’t I given him?

[ lets him take the drink he's still busy ]

Sweetheart, if you want to pretend this is nasty, then I'll go ahead and pretend you don't know what nasty is.

Let me throw you a bone instead of spinning circles on your emotions for once. There's nothing wrong with your relationship for what it is. But as far as I'm concerned...? The only person I'm willing to consider changing my plans for is someone that's going to love him like he loves them. And you? You already made a decision that you're not it.

So you can't have him. I'm not going to let you have your way in forfeit of my own at this level.

…what is it you want so badly? What are you going to do with your existence that you seem to think is so much more important than his?

I want something worth dying for.

…

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t understand.

You also understand that what holds you back from gaining it doesn't apply to me and Sam.

...Except Sam has an attachment to you that makes him hesitate despite only knowing you around 100 days. But neither Sam nor I can make you happy because we can't help you find what you're afraid to seek. So, why should I give my own desire up for someone who's too afraid to pursue theirs? Maybe you'll be a little less complacent without Sam, but you have many others that will fill whatever you feel you lost. You'll find another Sam.

Edited 2025-12-21 09:18 (UTC)

Yes, I have other friends. No one can be a replacement for someone else though.

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