Mhm. But... as I said... you're an exception. He feels things when you're around, feels things for you. It's like those poetic lines where people say their world has no color except when they're around a certain person, you know~? That's why he's suddenly willing to fight me on finding a way back to Teyvat.
...Oh, and I might as well clarify now, too: when I said no one will ever love you more than Sam, I meant in a very different way than Miss Jem. Because Sam can't really feel, that makes you the entire world. Jem has other people she loves, in this case. Jem wins on quality, but Sam... well I guess you could say he's all in. If you ever find that in another person ... heh.
...Heh. You were a little bit nice to someone who desperately needed to be shown a hint of kindness. At best his feelings are just circumstance— anyone else, had they done the same thing for him before you, would now have Sam's affections; and he'd barely look at you. He doesn't feel anything special for you because of you.
And you...? You accept this because you're an unwilling imposter, at best— even though you like to think you're honest, you've never shown him the real you, anyway. Do you even know who you are anymore past your grand act for the world stage?
That's what you've been telling yourself for so long, already, isn't it? If it isn't, I think you should start.
Does that idea bother you? It works just fine for you two being friends, doesn't it? Lucky to have each other, even if had the dice rolled differently you two could have replaced one another so easily.
...Unless what makes Sam so important to you really is that unique? [ Childe's tone drips with the unspoken 'such a shame' if that were the case. ]
Well, we wouldn't be having this conversation for one, no? Seems better for you, already.
Hmm... depends on how long and how nice. You two first met, but he wasn't very willing for your company for a day or two, right? Didn't you two get into a little spiff over information exchange, even the first day or two? I was so sure you would have messed that up, but you managed a save. Just barely, but you did.
[ Childe makes a bit of a face for moment before considering, and his drink is a little about 70% percent empty, so yes. ]
...I don't think anyone on this boat could give me what I would want and need in order for me to actively choose to fall for them. If I have to pick someone and be miserable about it not being someone who feels the same way, then I guess you are the choice for it that I would make.
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...Oh, and I might as well clarify now, too: when I said no one will ever love you more than Sam, I meant in a very different way than Miss Jem. Because Sam can't really feel, that makes you the entire world. Jem has other people she loves, in this case. Jem wins on quality, but Sam... well I guess you could say he's all in. If you ever find that in another person ... heh.
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And you...? You accept this because you're an unwilling imposter, at best— even though you like to think you're honest, you've never shown him the real you, anyway. Do you even know who you are anymore past your grand act for the world stage?
That's what you've been telling yourself for so long, already, isn't it? If it isn't, I think you should start.
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...Unless what makes Sam so important to you really is that unique? [ Childe's tone drips with the unspoken 'such a shame' if that were the case. ]
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[Leans back against the arm of the couch, swirling his glass before taking a sip]
What if someone awful had been nice to him first?
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Well, we wouldn't be having this conversation for one, no? Seems better for you, already.
Hmm... depends on how long and how nice. You two first met, but he wasn't very willing for your company for a day or two, right? Didn't you two get into a little spiff over information exchange, even the first day or two? I was so sure you would have messed that up, but you managed a save. Just barely, but you did.
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What sort of person would you have picked?
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I mean had your and his places been swapped…who would you have fallen for?
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On this boat?
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[Leans over a little to check if his drink needs a refresh]
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...I don't think anyone on this boat could give me what I would want and need in order for me to actively choose to fall for them. If I have to pick someone and be miserable about it not being someone who feels the same way, then I guess you are the choice for it that I would make.
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What about off the boat then?
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[ Childe finished the rest of his own drink now so that he can take the next one that Jewel has so kindly acquired. ]
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