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[vapour]

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Re: Day 306

[vapour]

Haha, weren't you just saying it was partly offensive because it was suggesting Jem's love was less? Yet now you want to know why he isn't capable of matching Jem's love?

There's so many answers I could give you, and all would be true. But I wonder which one is important for you to hear.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

I'm curious for his sake because he deserves to love and be loved that intently too.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

Let's go with the logical one then. Jem is a very special individual. Her type are very hard to find even for the socially attractive.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

Mmmm, she is special.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

[ just sips his drink after giving a brief nod. ]

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

I just think he deserves someone special too.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

Maybe he does, it's rare to get one and practically impossible get more than one of those in your lifetime. His special someone has already come and gone.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

Who was his special someone...?

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

His sister. Her name was Vira.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

Her, huh.....

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

And that's also why he can't love like Jem can. Because loving someone like that before not only hurt him but took that person away from him. It's a sad story, but there's nothing to be done. You know that from your own other self, I would bet.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

What would you know about my other self.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

[ shrugs ]

I don't know much of anything except that he has way more of a drive to get what he really wants than you do. And you envy that, but you don't envy the rest of him to the point you won't even consider becoming that person or going back unless maybe you lose everything here. So my guess is that he has a really bad life.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

This me has people who care about me, seems like the better deal.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

Fair enough. Sam has a better deal back where I come from, though.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

[Looks him up and down pointedly]

Are you sure about that?

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

And why are you asking that? [ and looking at him like that while doing it. ]

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

Are you really that much happier than him, I wonder.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

Monsters are meant to be useful not happy. We're well enough content with having a purpose.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

A monster? What makes you a monster?

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

What makes anyone a monster other than war?

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

A few things, but I'm not asking about just anyone. I'm asking about you.

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

War technically still but also the Abyss, in my case.

Re: Day 306

[gottalearntoplayitright]

Calling yourself a 'monster' is a bit extreme, isn't it?

Re: Day 306

[vapour]

I'm just repeating what the world says outside my country.

But don't misunderstand, I don't need or want pity. I don't need someone to see me as something other than a monster. What's really wrong with being a monster in the end, anyway? Someone always has to play the role of foil for the "good guys" to look good.

—and I would rather be seen as a monster than never seen at all.