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I doubt you really want to sit here and listen to me complain about myself.

Did you want to sit and hear me talk about what we just did?

Edited 2025-02-01 01:34 (UTC)

....fine, but tell me if you want me to stop talking about it at any point.

Okay.

I've just been thinking...about what changes I need to make so that, if there ever was a next time, I wouldn't want to opt to...you know....not put my heart back in.

And those are...?

Apparently I take on too much stress. And, shock of the century, it winds up stressing me out.

Oh, yeah, that's very surprising.

[Reaches out to pinch his side gently]

You could at least try to look surprised.

[ jumps a little, hey now, he's kinda ticklish/sensitive! ] Ah, wow— [ he looks surprised by that before he can't help but laugh a bit. ] I'm very surprised, you know, what does it matter how I look about it!

If you're going to say you're surprised, that face should at least match the words!

[Reaches out for another pinch]

This is absolutely my surprised face, I'll have you know!

[ playfully swats away. ]

That's smiling, not surprised.

[Takes both his hands]

It's called being pleasantly surprised~. You're not only going to solve your own dilemma here, but one the entire world suffers with, too. You can win the next peace prize for this.

[ since hands are occupied he's gonna give a shoulder nudge. just a small reassurance he's not lost sight of what they're talking about despite teasing him. ] So, how are you planning to not get stressed out by stress? I want to take your class, too.

[Groans, releasing his hands and picking his drink back up]

Well. Someone suggested I budget the things that weigh me down. I'm going to try it, but I don't think it's that easy.

...Of course it's not that easy. [ makes a face. ] Who the fuck gives advice like that when they aren't a medical professional? [ oh wait, this boat is full of unwanted advice from people that have no actual life experience or relevance to be giving it, he almost forgot. He gets they mean well (Sam does, anyway, ??? isn't so convinced, but they say least can agree on that assumption when it's towards someone else like Jewel.) ] It's not bad advice textbook style, but it's not good, either, if you don't have the support resources. And last I checked there's only one licensed therapist on this boat that could be that support, and I know you aren't seeing them. You need to develop coping strategies, it doesn't just~ happen~ because you and everyone else wants it to.

[ a pause, looking kind of annoyed before closing his eyes. ] What else?

Edited 2025-02-01 10:00 (UTC)

I guess...just...I am starting to sort of accept there may be some things I need to work on. I mean, I knew, but...I guess I was doing my best to not make eye contact with those things?

No one's perfect. You'll be happier in the long run always pushing yourself to do and be better, so good for you for taking the first steps.

I'm going to try at least.

One question, though.

Hmmm....?

Did anyone bother to tell you that the way you reacted wasn't wrong?

Ah, well, some people said they'd support it if it was something I still wanted now that I wasn't...

[Waves hands

Heh. That's not what I asked.

I....think everyone was mostly agreed they understand to a degree why I reacted that way?

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