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It's called being pleasantly surprised~. You're not only going to solve your own dilemma here, but one the entire world suffers with, too. You can win the next peace prize for this.

[ since hands are occupied he's gonna give a shoulder nudge. just a small reassurance he's not lost sight of what they're talking about despite teasing him. ] So, how are you planning to not get stressed out by stress? I want to take your class, too.

[Groans, releasing his hands and picking his drink back up]

Well. Someone suggested I budget the things that weigh me down. I'm going to try it, but I don't think it's that easy.

...Of course it's not that easy. [ makes a face. ] Who the fuck gives advice like that when they aren't a medical professional? [ oh wait, this boat is full of unwanted advice from people that have no actual life experience or relevance to be giving it, he almost forgot. He gets they mean well (Sam does, anyway, ??? isn't so convinced, but they say least can agree on that assumption when it's towards someone else like Jewel.) ] It's not bad advice textbook style, but it's not good, either, if you don't have the support resources. And last I checked there's only one licensed therapist on this boat that could be that support, and I know you aren't seeing them. You need to develop coping strategies, it doesn't just~ happen~ because you and everyone else wants it to.

[ a pause, looking kind of annoyed before closing his eyes. ] What else?

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I guess...just...I am starting to sort of accept there may be some things I need to work on. I mean, I knew, but...I guess I was doing my best to not make eye contact with those things?

No one's perfect. You'll be happier in the long run always pushing yourself to do and be better, so good for you for taking the first steps.

I'm going to try at least.

One question, though.

Hmmm....?

Did anyone bother to tell you that the way you reacted wasn't wrong?

Ah, well, some people said they'd support it if it was something I still wanted now that I wasn't...

[Waves hands

Heh. That's not what I asked.

I....think everyone was mostly agreed they understand to a degree why I reacted that way?

I see. Interesting.

[ He says in the most uninterested tone anyone's probably ever said that.

he'll shrug, though, going to get up and come back with some darts and set them on the bartop between them. He takes his seat again with his back against the counter and grabs his half-fill to drink from it as he looks around the Lounge and looks for a dart board. ]

You sure do do make a big stink about having a lot to talk about when it comes to yourself, but you fall flat on delivery every time, you know.

[....shrugs, picking up a dart and tapping it against the bar top]

What can I say? I start feeling annoying for my complaining not even half way through.

Is that a thing you do with everyone or just Sam?

[Blinks slowly, looking up at him]

Ah....well. I do that with everyone. I'm difficult like that, I guess...

[ takes one of the darts and flicks it towards the dart board that's clearly not positioned to be played from here; the distance is way too long and if this was an actual crowded restaurant like a normal boat, there's no way there would be a clear path. ]

Is that what you constitute as difficult? You really love these negative words about yourself, but you're a pretty confident and charismatic person on the surface from what I remember.

[ that dart he so casually shot has hit bullseye dead center. ]

I guess my question is do you really want to spill your guts and just can't bring yourself to, or are you just hoping you sound more engaged by pretending to be open to sharing? There's no right answer, I'm just curious what version we're playing.

I'm an Aria, of course I'm charismatic....

[....whistles at the toss]

As for your question, of course it's the first one. Though, I'm sure some people would believe I'm playing a popularity game. I have nothing to gain though.

[ motions for Jewel to come over closer to him with his dart. ]

What're you afraid of, then?

[Walks over, drink in one hand and dart in the other]

Being more work than I'm worth, I guess...

[ shifts so he can pull Jewel in front of him, one hand on his waist while the other goes over the hand holding the dart. Just going to gently tweak his fingers and the rest of his arm, feeling along the muscles to make sure the proper ones are relaxed and the others are taut.

He will lean in to ask quietly against his ear even as he takes hold of Jewel's hand to pull it back into position for him to throw when he's ready (and Sam'll let go, so Jewel can do so on his own accord.) ]

Don't you ever get tired of that fear and just wish you could break free of it?

[Allows his body to be maneuvered into position]

Of course I do. Even I get tired... Especially I get tired....

[Tosses the dart, hitting the center of the board]

Afterall, I have to deal with me more than anyone else does.

[ hums in satisfaction as the dart embeds itself, punctuating his words with that same sentiment. ]

Very nice. Progress is as progress does.

I pretty much hit the point of tired where I have to do something about it.

Will you?

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