vapour | LL PT. 2

What if it means protecting you?
I do not want to be the reason something terrible happens to you.
The other version of me was so desperate to save and protect everyone that he would
trap them in an eternal dream where he would be the only one who would never sleep so he can control the dream.

I feel his desperation a lot of the time and the same ache in his heart when he witnesses someone suffering.

What if you can't choose and or have to hurt someone you care about just as much? I don't want that for you.

I hope it does not come to that,
but who can say what is in the mind of those hosting these performers?
Some are more sadistic than others...

I hope if it ever comes to you and me, you prioritize yourself first,
but I cannot stop you if you do not nor will I hate you for it.

I really want you to protect yourself first in that situation, too, but... I'll never hate or resent you for your choice. Those moments are really hard to act rationally. I'll do my absolute best to prioritize myself in this sort of case, though, if it means that much to you. Promise. My goal is to make you hurt the least amount for the shortest time, and I know how it can be far more painful to deal with someone else getting hurt or even killed because they wanted to "protect" you.

You know I would never mind taking care of you if you were injured.
I may not be able to heal, but I can still keep you warm and tend to you.
I simply do not wish for you to feel like you have to endure anything alone either.

That means so much to me. I want you to feel the same, although I also know being a Siren and being an idol makes it harder to accept outside help. Still, I'll always be here when you need me. I do want to reassure you, though... I've done extremely well in these performances. Not saying it'll always be like that, but I don't want you thinking I'm over here suffering while telling you nothing's wrong. It's kind of priority in my family to know how to aim for the outcome that gets me harmed the least.

[ not physically anyway... although even then it's not like Friday is wrong on how he would react to being physically injured, either. It just hasn't really happened, yet. ]

That said, never gonna say no to your company for whatever reason. It's always needed simply because it's wanted.

Maybe we should think more strategically about attaining better results with less risk,
though all of us tend to have a penchant for the dramatics, which gets in the way of our better judgment.
It cannot be helped.

I will nevertheless heed your advice and try and avoid too much trauma if I can help it.
I am definitely never drinking that much again.

Ahaha, still beating yourself up about that? At least you can't get alcohol poisoning here.

My mistake was signing the contracts that Yue drew up with his blessing.
That allowed me to drank far past where I would have normally passed out.
My liver may never recover from this.

So that's how you did it? I thought it was an effect of the ship itself. What a troublesome blessing... Anything that seems too convenient is always problematic in some way I find.

I doubt the producers would give us that much of an advantage.
I would have tempered myself better, but the contract made the beer taste so delicious as well.

I see. Was that at least mentioned in the contract?

Yes, all the beer tasted like strawberry and cream.
I need to curb my sweet tooth better and avoid temptation.

At least, it was temporary.
Beer has gone back to tasting like gutter water.

Yeah, probably would have been better to eat strawberries and cream. But, that wasn't how to win, either. Well, it's over, no harm no foul.

I know the relief is short-lived,
but I plan to enjoy it.

You should do something relaxing as well now that you have escaped another performance relatively intact.

I'm adding to my performance tally on my wall as we speak!

Something even more relaxing like a warm bath
or a walk through the garden
or a cozy book.

that is one thing I miss about a private bathroom, actually. Not enough to bother getting one through upgrades when I could get other stuff, but...

You could use mine?
And take one with me.

If you want, that is.
It was just a thought.
No pressure.

really? Is it big enough?

It is not as big as the one back home, but I have fit into it with another person before.

ohh, sounds fun, we should definitely do it sometime!

I would gladly welcome you,
though I need a bit of a forewarning to clean and disinfect it as best as I can.

I always keep it clean anyway, but it would put me at ease.

haha, of course! I won't give you any crazy surprises like that.

Edited 2025-08-10 04:23 (UTC)

Then I will look forward to it.
When you are up to cooking, you can also stop by.
I found some good recipes online, and I would not mind spoiling you a bit.

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