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How so?

I imagine it’s complicated. Messing with the memories of the people you like. For better or for worse.

...Even though you're suffering, you're still worrying about others. You're very kind.

'Complicated' is a good way to put it... But, if it were to make your situation that much better, it's okay because the benefit outweighs the risk.

I just... don't want you afraid of me or losing trust. ... Still, for you, I'd do it even if those things were to happen so long as it really could help. My support in any way is available for whatever and whenever you need or want.

I'm not kind. So don't let me take too much.

You are kind to me. Isn't it enough to adore you for that?

Adore me, huh? Isn’t adore a little strong?

No, it's not. But, I understand why you would think so.

Why would I think so?

Because it's not been a long enough time since we've known each other, right? And you're an idol, everyone "adores" you.

Edited 2025-03-24 21:24 (UTC)

Shouldn't it have not been enough time for you either? You can't have decided that quickly, right?

I said I adore you, not that I love you. You're worth treasuring. I don't need more days to realize this. You don't understand how little I have been treated kindly without ulterior motive. It's very important to me.

... Don't worry, I'm not saying this expecting the same or anything at all in return. I just thought you should know before it's over. And I won't be able to say it later.

Why wouldn't you be able to say it later?

Because... it's hard for me to admit to as someone who doesn't form many relationships with people.

Should I record it so you don't try to take it back?

[ chuckles quietly, wincing a bit as he does. ]

I won't take it back. Fair warning, though: eventually down the line somewhere I may even come to love you if things go well. Don't misconstrue the intentions, though. Loving you will also not be the same as being in love with you. Try to understand it properly so you don't get upset by it. I hope you will be able to accept it if that time comes.

[Leans in to give his cheek a little peck]

Understood.

Just try and believe me. I don't say these things lightly. Even if you think it's too fast.

I'm trying, I'm trying, promise.

Don't do it for me. Do it for yourself. One day, you're gonna find someone to adore, love, and-or fall in love with; but they will not only not feel the same, they won't believe you could possibly be telling the truth. You have only been on one side of the spectrum, but you might be hurt by this if you are on the other end of it. But, if you yourself can't believe others when they do this to you, you have no right to be hurt by it.

I like you, I think you deserve good things in life. I don't want you to miss out on them by struggling with basic things such as being likeable.

Edited 2025-03-25 02:22 (UTC)

Are you hurt?

Me? No. This is something I'm used to. Even if you said you felt the same way, I wouldn't believe you.

You know....someone I like once told me..."I like you, I think you deserve good things in life. I don't want you to miss out on them by struggling with basic things such as being likeable.".

Ah. See? I am not the only one who thinks so.

[Attempts to dunk him]

[ he gets dunked?!

why?!

...ah, wait, was that exactly what he just said to Jewel word for word?! Shoot he can't remember already, his brain is still fuzzy. But this reaction seems like that.

Pushes his head back up blowing some bubbles before speaking. ]

okok, I believe you! But only because I like you.

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