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...Yeah.

Was definitely mine unlike the ones we've seen as prizes for winning performances.

Did she say why?

I mean ...

[ Shifts uncomfortably. ] she... gave everyone who has amnesia one...?

Did she... Interesting.

... But I guess not important right now.

Do you want to talk about it.

[?]

...Yes, but I don't know what to say or who to say it to.

...I cannot promise to be even a little useful. But you can tell me what happened, if you want.

... it's fine, there's no one on this ship that could.

I'm sure you found plenty of articles saying I'm dead due to being shot by my older sister. I didn't have memories of it, it's just what I've been told.

So either this is my memory of that incident or the Ticketmaster is really really good at playing mind games by fabricating fakes somehow.

... There's probably no reason to believe it's fabricated. Especially if it matches what you had already assumed.

Did you learn anything new?

[ nods. ]

...I was too trusting. If I had been more suspicious and thorough, it might have all been avoided.

Trusting of... Your sister?

...Yeah. [ which is probably a big reason why he's so untrusting of literally everyone even when they're kind—or, rather, even more untrusting when they're kind. ]

If the memory is correct, anyway.

I think being trusting of family is generally normal.

. . .

Either way, it was a mistake. It's just lucky no one else was killed.

...there is probably someone who was supposed to prevent what happened, but it wasn't you.

You realize that, right?

... How am I to be sure of that?

What makes it your fault, then?

I confronted her and she backed down. She was crying and apologizing and afraid, and I was so unnerved that I didn't check what she did with the gun she had been pointing originally.

I let her lead me off to her room and didn't pay attention to where she was as we discussed her going to get help because she had shot one of our bodyguards.

So you believe that because you had the opportunity to prevent it, that makes you at fault?

[ Sam gives a slow nod. ]

She killed herself because after she shot me she really did come out of her episode. At least, that's what the screams in the memory say.

Okay.

Who else could have prevented it?

[ hmmm... ]

Not... entirely sure. The only people in the memory were one of our bodyguards that was injured, the private family doctor I called to tend to him, and the two of us.

Edited 2024-10-15 00:04 (UTC)

You can use general terms.

Such as, whoever let her have a gun, whether deliberately or accidentally. The body guard who clearly failed at their job. The guardians who presumably had some influence over her care. The friend who could have handled things differently. And, of course, Vera herself.

[ Sam shifts in his sitting position as he listens carefully before nodding slowly. He does hear and acknowledge on some level what Booker is saying makes sense, but it's extremely hard to suppress the insane survivor's guilt. ]

And it's really only by luck that you aren't just the victim in this.

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