I think everything that needed to be said was said. What I do want to know is what caused your mind to cloud so hard that you needed to do what you did at all?
...'Tch. I knew a lot of people that died. More than Chiffon, only not as well, it still bothered me more than I expected. The monster had human body parts in it and I couldn't get them out of my head. I needed company to sleep, and I had told Jewel I might need him for it later. Once Jewel left after we met up, I obviously couldn't sleep.
Next day I find out Audra is missing. Chiffon is hurt by my actions. I'm feeling extremely useless by this point. I then remember the memory of my death and it just keeps looping.
So I got more and more desperate to shut out the loop, but I need to sleep to be able to do that. I then got into an argument with a friend about my inability to sleep and that I wasn't pressuring Acidia enough for it, which made me snap and just give zero fucks about how I did I just so long as I could successfully sleep.
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It may feel like it does nothing, but it does.
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Up on the deck so you can get some air.
[ That's where he'll be, too. ]
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You've looked better. Come along.
[ They're just going to walk. ]
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[ He's not speedwalking, though. ]
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[ obviously a huge lie but. ]
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I'm not even walking fast enough to get my blood going. You're lucky this is around when I start to wake up for my workout.
[ It's actually two hours from now but who cares. ]
Keep in step with me. Move your arms like I am. We're going to cover the entire deck.
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What did you want to talk about or did you really just want me up here for workout company?
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[ He glances over at him. ]
I think everything that needed to be said was said. What I do want to know is what caused your mind to cloud so hard that you needed to do what you did at all?
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Don't be obtuse. Tell me everything.
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...'Tch. I knew a lot of people that died. More than Chiffon, only not as well, it still bothered me more than I expected.
The monster had human body parts in it and I couldn't get them out of my head. I needed company to sleep, and I had told Jewel I might need him for it later.
Once Jewel left after we met up, I obviously couldn't sleep.
Next day I find out Audra is missing. Chiffon is hurt by my actions. I'm feeling extremely useless by this point. I then remember the memory of my death and it just keeps looping.
So I got more and more desperate to shut out the loop, but I need to sleep to be able to do that. I then got into an argument with a friend about my inability to sleep and that I wasn't pressuring Acidia enough for it, which made me snap and just give zero fucks about how I did I just so long as I could successfully sleep.
That's all...
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... so you saw your memory, then. What did you learn about this "death"?
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Seems to be the source of why I'm so afraid of being manipulated. If my own sister who loved me so much could do it then why not everyone?
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At least you admit that you're afraid. How's the doubting everyone's intentions worked out for you?
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I'll judge you always for the latter, but it's your choice either way. It's not like my advice will change your mind until you're willing to take it.
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Can't choose not to listen if I don't know what I'm not listening to.
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