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{ —& by now I don't need a fucking ɪɴᴛʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴛɪᴏɴ. }

[ gllllaannnccciiiinnnnnng over in the same direction as Booker before tilting his head. ]

Any reason you're always so down on yourself?

[what]

What?

Why are you always so negative about your own company?

I'm just realistic, actually.

I mean, I guess?

You understand not everyone is trying to be likeable, right?

Yes. You and Jewel are fucking pros at it, too. Maybe that's why you guys get along while insisting you don't and expect people to believe it.

Edited 2024-10-24 17:27 (UTC)

I don't insist anything.

And I would consider him the top local culprit for 'tries too hard to be likable'.

Trying too hard to be likeable is arguably the same as making yourself unlikeable. whether it's intentional or not is up to the person acting that way. But you both are way too invested in keeping your respective images.

Hm.

[idle tail sway]

Not a bad observation.

[ wohoo. Need for feeling of satisfaction from yellow frosting check. ]

Thank you.

I think it's okay if you both feel so strongly about it. But for someone like you, I think you deserve better than you're willing to give yourself. It's not a bad thing if people think kindly of you is it? Being on your own is so lonely. I don't wish that one anyone. Jewel has a lot of people who care about him. You don't seem to, though.

I have enough.

How many people care about you?

[ yikes don't turn this around on him. ]

I'm not sure, I don't trust anyone enough to bank on them actually caring when it matters. It isn't that they are bad people or untrustworthy and I like a lot of them; but I just haven't known anyone long enough. Still, I like to think at least one person truly does, maybe even on this boat. That should be enough, right?

Well, if you're satisfied with one, I have two. Twice as many as necessary. So you don't have anything to fuss about.

Beggars can't be choosers, right? The difference between you and me is I don't try to be unlikeable. But, that might just reinforce the idea that you are doing a lot better than I'm concerned for, which is a good thing. Still, if you can attract as twice as many as me while being unlikeable, maybe you should cut yourself a little slack and embrace it?

Ah.

You think I dislike myself.

Edited 2024-10-24 18:44 (UTC)

[ nods. ]

I go out of my way to be unlikeable so if you like me, your standards are low. That's just a fact.

To draw another parallel with Joel, if someone were to say "I'm on like people like Jewel", their standards would be too high, right?

Why would "people like Jewel" be considered too high standard?

Edited 2024-10-24 20:41 (UTC)

Super rich beautiful popular idols doesn't seem like a high standard to you?

[wait a minute]

[Super rich, check]

[Beautiful....... check]

[Popular.... well he is a successful novelist anyway]

[Idol no but assassin might beat idol]

[x]

Nevermind. Forget I said anything.

[ ...ahh, doesn't know why Booker suddenly says the "nevermind" but— ]

Well, when you put it that way, yeah it does feel impossible. It's probably easier for me to block out since I'm not very familiar with him. [ he gets the beautiful popular part, at least...?! ]

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