I did. Aviana was there with me. She's the only one who stayed when I asked her to. She's the only one besides Ore who checked on me when we were put back together. Felt just revived near me so that was a given. And Acidia had just died like us.
No one else did, or could, because they had others they were already worried about. And others who were already there for them.
So I wondered. Did anyone even think of me? Would anyone have thought of me, if I hadn't gone to them?
Even you... You've been smelling like Jewel a lot more than others, too.
And Lithium, of course He loves Brocade, and has many others.
And Brocade has more love for everyone else Never letting me do more for him because he thinks that's how to care.
So I asked myself... Why am I even here beyond being in your orbits?
No one thinks of me at all as someone they want to turn to in times where it matters. Even when I want to be there for them.
I'm not angry at you. Maybe I'm hurt, yes. But not at *you* or anyone in particular. Just to be clear.
I don't feel valued. I don't feel necessary. And I won't demand that from people who never even needed to give me that in the first place.
Re: Day 213-4-ish, night (nebulous time for now)
Aviana was there with me.
She's the only one who stayed when I asked her to. She's the only one besides Ore who checked on me when we were put back together.
Felt just revived near me so that was a given.
And Acidia had just died like us.
No one else did, or could, because they had others they were already worried about.
And others who were already there for them.
So I wondered.
Did anyone even think of me?
Would anyone have thought of me, if I hadn't gone to them?
Even you...
You've been smelling like Jewel a lot more than others, too.
And Lithium, of course
He loves Brocade, and has many others.
And Brocade has more love for everyone else
Never letting me do more for him because he thinks that's how to care.
So I asked myself...
Why am I even here beyond being in your orbits?
No one thinks of me at all as someone they want to turn to in times where it matters.
Even when I want to be there for them.
I'm not angry at you.
Maybe I'm hurt, yes.
But not at *you* or anyone in particular.
Just to be clear.
I don't feel valued.
I don't feel necessary.
And I won't demand that from people who never even needed to give me that in the first place.